. the time i'd looked around for sam . he was gone . he had not come by the house later for the reception .
i missed him .
i didn't know how sam had been managing the suspension he'd received from his superiors . the boss cops knew nothing of the secret he and i shae , they were punishing him for a venial transgression that involved lust , bad judgment , and some secondary sins of omission he'd committed along the way .
after his disciplinary hearing . i'd called sam to see how he was doing . he didn't reurn my call .money was always tight for sam -boyulder isn't an easy place to live on cop's wages . i didn't know if he had the financial resources to go six months without pay - i suspected he did not - or whether he'd found another job to carry him through the interim .i wonder too how he felt about breaking up with his longtime girlfriend , carmen . the lust part of his transgression hadbroken the trust between them .i heard he'd flown out to where she lived in orange county , california , to end it with her shortly after adrienne's funeral .
i'd called him again a week or so after his suspension was handed down to offer him some money .- agift if he'd take it , a loan if he wouldn't . once again he hadn't returned my call . i reached out to him one more time , a couple of weeks later , using a pay phone on broadway only a few blocks from hisnorth boulder home . i knew he was there when i phoned ; i'd just driven by his house and watched him reposition a sprinkler on his crappy front lawn .
he'd lost weight . the shorts he was wearing hung on his hip bones in a way that caused me to avert my eyes when i saw he was about to bend over to move the hose .
he didn't answer the phone that time either .
i wasn't able to get back to sleep after merideth called to tell me she'd decided she did indeed want me to talk to carmel poteet . she had also asked me to get in touch with sam .
i missed him .
i didn't know how sam had been managing the suspension he'd received from his superiors . the boss cops knew nothing of the secret he and i shae , they were punishing him for a venial transgression that involved lust , bad judgment , and some secondary sins of omission he'd committed along the way .
after his disciplinary hearing . i'd called sam to see how he was doing . he didn't reurn my call .money was always tight for sam -boyulder isn't an easy place to live on cop's wages . i didn't know if he had the financial resources to go six months without pay - i suspected he did not - or whether he'd found another job to carry him through the interim .i wonder too how he felt about breaking up with his longtime girlfriend , carmen . the lust part of his transgression hadbroken the trust between them .i heard he'd flown out to where she lived in orange county , california , to end it with her shortly after adrienne's funeral .
i'd called him again a week or so after his suspension was handed down to offer him some money .- agift if he'd take it , a loan if he wouldn't . once again he hadn't returned my call . i reached out to him one more time , a couple of weeks later , using a pay phone on broadway only a few blocks from hisnorth boulder home . i knew he was there when i phoned ; i'd just driven by his house and watched him reposition a sprinkler on his crappy front lawn .
he'd lost weight . the shorts he was wearing hung on his hip bones in a way that caused me to avert my eyes when i saw he was about to bend over to move the hose .
he didn't answer the phone that time either .
i wasn't able to get back to sleep after merideth called to tell me she'd decided she did indeed want me to talk to carmel poteet . she had also asked me to get in touch with sam .
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