i felt a compelling need to see his eyes . he wasn't giving me a chance . i waited a few moments before i asked ." how are you sleeping ?"
he knew what i was asking . from the day i brought him home to spainish hills from tel aviv , jonas had grown progressively anxious as bedtime neared , it could take him hours to fall asleep .
"okay ," he said ." the same maybe ."
"still trouble falling asleep ?"
he looked up atr me and nodded .
"anything , i can do to help ?"
"don't think so ."
i'sd already made a judgment that , despite kim's cooking , jnas's appetite hadn't improved . he was as thin as i'd ever seem him .
the fact that he seeemed to be getting along well with his cousins was , in contrast , a great piece of news , the first real sign that the initial bruises from his trauma might be begining to change colors .
"i want to be clear . you're telling me that you don't want to come to the city anyone ?"
"yeah ."
" and you want to go back home , jonas ? to bouldr ?"he kicked the rock again . i realized at that moment that my stepson apppeared to be left -footed . i'd had no idead . he was right -handed . i had so much catching up to do .
including some reading on mixed dominance .
"i think so ," he said finally ." yeah . you can go back to colorado ."
it was a gutsy move for the kid in so many ways . since his mother's death i had been his security blanket , and he was sending me away . he was either oblivious to my feelings about his decidsion , which was good , or confident enough in my relationship with him that he felt he could risk my risk my reaction , which was better . i hoped it was the latter .
i tried to make my next words render ." i if i do go to boulder , i'll come back out and get you whenever you want . and i'll be here for sure when your visit it over .
he knew what i was asking . from the day i brought him home to spainish hills from tel aviv , jonas had grown progressively anxious as bedtime neared , it could take him hours to fall asleep .
"okay ," he said ." the same maybe ."
"still trouble falling asleep ?"
he looked up atr me and nodded .
"anything , i can do to help ?"
"don't think so ."
i'sd already made a judgment that , despite kim's cooking , jnas's appetite hadn't improved . he was as thin as i'd ever seem him .
the fact that he seeemed to be getting along well with his cousins was , in contrast , a great piece of news , the first real sign that the initial bruises from his trauma might be begining to change colors .
"i want to be clear . you're telling me that you don't want to come to the city anyone ?"
"yeah ."
" and you want to go back home , jonas ? to bouldr ?"he kicked the rock again . i realized at that moment that my stepson apppeared to be left -footed . i'd had no idead . he was right -handed . i had so much catching up to do .
including some reading on mixed dominance .
"i think so ," he said finally ." yeah . you can go back to colorado ."
it was a gutsy move for the kid in so many ways . since his mother's death i had been his security blanket , and he was sending me away . he was either oblivious to my feelings about his decidsion , which was good , or confident enough in my relationship with him that he felt he could risk my risk my reaction , which was better . i hoped it was the latter .
i tried to make my next words render ." i if i do go to boulder , i'll come back out and get you whenever you want . and i'll be here for sure when your visit it over .
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