. so he would fail to notice the coffee shops and red-light distict - i could hget him addicted to rijstte after one or two courses .
i brought him up to speed on my family's going -on , my trip to new yoork to be close to jonas , and the girls' jaut to europe . it took a few minutes . he digested the revelations about lauren 's past in stride . where sexual indiscrerion was concerned , sam felt he was the blackest pot on the hearth , and he was not about to disparage anyone else's charred kettle .
as we talked , the sun's rays marched relentlessly acrosss the table top . threatening to consume me in their fire .
our conversation was the kind of chat that good friends have . sam and i were conspiring to ignore the rlationship elephant in the room . the elepahnt was the fact that in the wake of an ultimate act of friendship the prious spring , we had been having great difficultacting like friends .
processing relationship dynamics with sam had never been an easy thing for me - he was a reluctant participant in any activity that approached the intentionally introspective . i wasn't about to risk ruining the first few minutes of our only conversation in a long time by insisting that he confront the distance that had infiltrated our friendship .
"you holding up ?" i asked him when an oppartunity appeared to refocus the conversation on him . sam's six-month unpaid suspension was little more than hlaf over . he had failed to notify his police superiors that he had been sexually involved with the victim of a hit-and-run case he had been investigatingf . that the victim was another police office had complicated things for sam considerably . as did the fact that he had a girlfriend at the time .
in rely to my direct question , he maintained that he wa doing ," good , good ." the second " good " pretty much erased any inclination i might have had to accept the fragile sincerity of the first . i asked how his trip to california to breaak with carmen - the aforemention girlfriend - had gone .
i brought him up to speed on my family's going -on , my trip to new yoork to be close to jonas , and the girls' jaut to europe . it took a few minutes . he digested the revelations about lauren 's past in stride . where sexual indiscrerion was concerned , sam felt he was the blackest pot on the hearth , and he was not about to disparage anyone else's charred kettle .
as we talked , the sun's rays marched relentlessly acrosss the table top . threatening to consume me in their fire .
our conversation was the kind of chat that good friends have . sam and i were conspiring to ignore the rlationship elephant in the room . the elepahnt was the fact that in the wake of an ultimate act of friendship the prious spring , we had been having great difficultacting like friends .
processing relationship dynamics with sam had never been an easy thing for me - he was a reluctant participant in any activity that approached the intentionally introspective . i wasn't about to risk ruining the first few minutes of our only conversation in a long time by insisting that he confront the distance that had infiltrated our friendship .
"you holding up ?" i asked him when an oppartunity appeared to refocus the conversation on him . sam's six-month unpaid suspension was little more than hlaf over . he had failed to notify his police superiors that he had been sexually involved with the victim of a hit-and-run case he had been investigatingf . that the victim was another police office had complicated things for sam considerably . as did the fact that he had a girlfriend at the time .
in rely to my direct question , he maintained that he wa doing ," good , good ." the second " good " pretty much erased any inclination i might have had to accept the fragile sincerity of the first . i asked how his trip to california to breaak with carmen - the aforemention girlfriend - had gone .
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