smart , funny , kind . i'm beyond flatered . you ....i thin k you know that the reason i ran isn't because i'm not attracted to you ."
"most men would have stayed ," she said in acknowledment . she did that smile with only one side of her mounth thing that i'd first seen the priovoius afternoon in mt. washington . it was part of what had beguiled me . i was wishing she'd stop doing it .
:yes ," i admitted . most men would have stayed . definittely ."it's been an uphill battle , but i'm trying not to be most men ."
"i'm not looking for ....a relationship , alan , i know you're leaving . going back to colorado . you leaving is part of the plan ."
i said ." i have a family . kids ," plural ." a wife ," singular .
"i don't know what that means ," shew said ." right now , this minute ."
how can you not know what that mean ? " at dinner you said tjhat you don't hook up with men qwho make yur heart go flip flop . maybe i didn't know it for sure last night , but ....i don't think i want to sleeep with women who don't make my heart go flip flop ."
she put on a face that was alll acting workshop pouty , she said ," and i don't make ypour heart go flip flop ?"
the over the top frown made me smile ." you make a lot of my bits go flip flop . but not my heart , not yet anyway ."i considered , then rejevcted , trying to explain the beguiling thing . she gave me a puzzle look as she ran her upper teeth front to bak over her lower lip . when i spoke again , my voice was soft . i was talking to myself as much as i i was to her ." i want to wake up every morning and adore the person sleeping beside me . i want to go to bed every night and feel adored by the person sleeping beside me . this- hooking up with you - would have been nice . better than nice . maybe great . but it might have poisoned the ..... whole adored thing ."
"you have that ? the adored thing ?"
"did once . i'm trying to find it again ."
"really ? you had it ?"
she was skeptical . i ub=nderstood that . i said . "i did ."
"who had to know about last night ?" she asked .
"i'd know . my truth doesn't change because i'm out of town ."
"you 're hopeless , are'n't you ?"
"maybe ."
she pulled the sunglass es from her face with her left hand and crossed her arm sover her chest ." i know this script . this where i'm supposed to say your wife is a lucky woman . yes ?"
"but ?" i asked .
she put her glasses on her nose ." is she , alan ?"
i stuffed my hands into the back pockets of my jeans . i looked at her . she lowered her chin so i could spy her eyes over the top of her shades .
"she wasn't yesterday ,: i said ." or last week . she masy be tomorrow . there's still a chance i can do something about tomorrow ."
"most men would have stayed ," she said in acknowledment . she did that smile with only one side of her mounth thing that i'd first seen the priovoius afternoon in mt. washington . it was part of what had beguiled me . i was wishing she'd stop doing it .
:yes ," i admitted . most men would have stayed . definittely ."it's been an uphill battle , but i'm trying not to be most men ."
"i'm not looking for ....a relationship , alan , i know you're leaving . going back to colorado . you leaving is part of the plan ."
i said ." i have a family . kids ," plural ." a wife ," singular .
"i don't know what that means ," shew said ." right now , this minute ."
how can you not know what that mean ? " at dinner you said tjhat you don't hook up with men qwho make yur heart go flip flop . maybe i didn't know it for sure last night , but ....i don't think i want to sleeep with women who don't make my heart go flip flop ."
she put on a face that was alll acting workshop pouty , she said ," and i don't make ypour heart go flip flop ?"
the over the top frown made me smile ." you make a lot of my bits go flip flop . but not my heart , not yet anyway ."i considered , then rejevcted , trying to explain the beguiling thing . she gave me a puzzle look as she ran her upper teeth front to bak over her lower lip . when i spoke again , my voice was soft . i was talking to myself as much as i i was to her ." i want to wake up every morning and adore the person sleeping beside me . i want to go to bed every night and feel adored by the person sleeping beside me . this- hooking up with you - would have been nice . better than nice . maybe great . but it might have poisoned the ..... whole adored thing ."
"you have that ? the adored thing ?"
"did once . i'm trying to find it again ."
"really ? you had it ?"
she was skeptical . i ub=nderstood that . i said . "i did ."
"who had to know about last night ?" she asked .
"i'd know . my truth doesn't change because i'm out of town ."
"you 're hopeless , are'n't you ?"
"maybe ."
she pulled the sunglass es from her face with her left hand and crossed her arm sover her chest ." i know this script . this where i'm supposed to say your wife is a lucky woman . yes ?"
"but ?" i asked .
she put her glasses on her nose ." is she , alan ?"
i stuffed my hands into the back pockets of my jeans . i looked at her . she lowered her chin so i could spy her eyes over the top of her shades .
"she wasn't yesterday ,: i said ." or last week . she masy be tomorrow . there's still a chance i can do something about tomorrow ."
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