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and experts hired by the networks weren't ruling out the possosbility that someone would stumble across the girls's bones .oden's next stop after leaving kingman , arizona , with jaana's baby was calirniea . his neighbors in fontana . outsidee of LA  , said he was a single father ewhen he arrived in town with his infant son ,
he was an insurance agebt  . a good hands guy . a devoted father .
he'd married a woman from mexioco a couple of years after mo0ving to town .
everyone who knew oden in fontana was surprised that he had ended  faeedown on that two lane desert road in the mojave .
everyone  who knew him in  was surprised that he had ended p on the eveing news .
the neighbors are always surprised .
except ewhen they knew it all along ,
lisa lost the baby , my baby , our baby , the dehydration she'd suffered in the dwesert in the trink of the car was too much for my fragile fetus .
but lisa survived ,
eric and i reached out to her every  way we could , but she wouldn't speak to us  . neither would stevie , eric prays about it a lot .
i wish lisa well .
eric and i cancelled our big fall wedding in the renovated ballroon at the plaza .
we toom that wek off from work , flew to molokai . and were married in a a traditional hawaiian ceremony overlooking the vastness of the pacific , our witness were eric 's god , three molokai natives , and the tropical sky .
we repeated our vows two weeks later in front of a dozen people at eric's church .
i didn't invite alan , i didn't invite my shrink . and i didn't invite the bitch
we had some frozen embrosleft .
we were close to deciding whether to adopt or to find another surrogate .
to me . each option felt fraugh with peril .
eric was more sanguine . he was praying on it . i was cool with that .
no matter what we deided , i was one hundred percent sure i was ready to be a miom.