. my radar had noted something incoming when eric said her name the first time . i'm not bashful . i asked eric what kind of " friend " lisa had been . were we talking girlfriend ? love ? one-night stand ? what ? i needed to know . i' m not sure it would have mattered to me . jealously isn't my thing .if i was convinced they were over , i would have been okay with it . i waited for him to tell me more . the fact he seemed reluctant to give me details didn't inspire my confidence .
" she was part of that grand canyond thing ." eric said finally .
"ah ," i'd said .
that grand canyond thing .
he had indeed told me about it . but he hadn't told me much .
the grand canyond thing was a fault buried deeply below the surface of our relationship . the romantic geologist in me knew it had significant ppotential energy .
at the moment eric had first alluded to the grand canyond thing . i remembered thinking that i had always thought alan , too , lived above a buried fault , i had never discovered what that was .
not long after , eric and i flew to california for a get-acquainted session with lisa . we stayed at my condo in west hollywood and i met her at a restaurant on mellrose . had a nice meal . when she left the table to go the bathroom , i took both of eric 's hands and i kissed him . i said , " i think she's lovely , eric . she could be the one ."
i'd meant it too . if i had been hiring a nanny whom i thought would be at my child's side for the next ten years , i would have hired lisa on the spot . she was that warm and that sincere and that maternal .she was yang to my pin . or maybe the other way around . had i paid attention . while i was in boulder i would knowwhich was which .
" she was part of that grand canyond thing ." eric said finally .
"ah ," i'd said .
that grand canyond thing .
he had indeed told me about it . but he hadn't told me much .
the grand canyond thing was a fault buried deeply below the surface of our relationship . the romantic geologist in me knew it had significant ppotential energy .
at the moment eric had first alluded to the grand canyond thing . i remembered thinking that i had always thought alan , too , lived above a buried fault , i had never discovered what that was .
not long after , eric and i flew to california for a get-acquainted session with lisa . we stayed at my condo in west hollywood and i met her at a restaurant on mellrose . had a nice meal . when she left the table to go the bathroom , i took both of eric 's hands and i kissed him . i said , " i think she's lovely , eric . she could be the one ."
i'd meant it too . if i had been hiring a nanny whom i thought would be at my child's side for the next ten years , i would have hired lisa on the spot . she was that warm and that sincere and that maternal .she was yang to my pin . or maybe the other way around . had i paid attention . while i was in boulder i would knowwhich was which .
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