. "okay ," he said . the word was one note shy of condescending . i wish i had that skill . the ability to couch my condescension . i don't .
now i have the bitch , though . that's almost as good .
" her hotel , the one we got for her ,is in morningside heights . that's not too far from here -it's near the other end of the park . but she wanted to go to someplace she'd read about downtown . i offered to pick her up . but she said she had errands to run and would meet me there . when she didn't show up at the restaurant , and then didn't answere her cell . i went to her palce to make sure she was all right . and ......she wasn't home ."
"she also told me she would meet me for bunch ."
" maybe she forgot . or something came up . people do miss ....engagements , meri ."
" cell phone ? text ? email ? phone call ? she has all my numbers . i put them in her speed -dial myself . if she wanted to find me , she could have betweent ?"
" that was sunday . today is tuesday ." he said ." what happened in between ?"
alan was telling me that he wasn't going to get infectted with my hysteria based on less than forty-eight hours of silence from my surrogate
well , why the hell not ?
the bitch spoke up just then . my narcissismgoverness . she said ," why the hell not , dear ? two reaons . because he isn't married to you anymore , and because he doesn't have to ."
the reality was that eric wasn't ready to panic with me eu=ither . from my perspective , he was way too calm about lisa 's " absence ."
that's what he called it - as though her disappearing act was akin to missing a couple of days of school . he remined me that the contact didn't ompel her to stay in constant contact with us .
doing nothing to find lisa wasn't possoble for me . it wasn't in my genes. if i had to search around in lis's background without without eric finding out about it , so be it ,but first , i had to convince alan to help . i needed him to call sam purdy for .
alan had come uptown to meet in strawbeery fields . he'd help .
now i have the bitch , though . that's almost as good .
" her hotel , the one we got for her ,is in morningside heights . that's not too far from here -it's near the other end of the park . but she wanted to go to someplace she'd read about downtown . i offered to pick her up . but she said she had errands to run and would meet me there . when she didn't show up at the restaurant , and then didn't answere her cell . i went to her palce to make sure she was all right . and ......she wasn't home ."
"she also told me she would meet me for bunch ."
" maybe she forgot . or something came up . people do miss ....engagements , meri ."
" cell phone ? text ? email ? phone call ? she has all my numbers . i put them in her speed -dial myself . if she wanted to find me , she could have betweent ?"
" that was sunday . today is tuesday ." he said ." what happened in between ?"
alan was telling me that he wasn't going to get infectted with my hysteria based on less than forty-eight hours of silence from my surrogate
well , why the hell not ?
the bitch spoke up just then . my narcissismgoverness . she said ," why the hell not , dear ? two reaons . because he isn't married to you anymore , and because he doesn't have to ."
the reality was that eric wasn't ready to panic with me eu=ither . from my perspective , he was way too calm about lisa 's " absence ."
that's what he called it - as though her disappearing act was akin to missing a couple of days of school . he remined me that the contact didn't ompel her to stay in constant contact with us .
doing nothing to find lisa wasn't possoble for me . it wasn't in my genes. if i had to search around in lis's background without without eric finding out about it , so be it ,but first , i had to convince alan to help . i needed him to call sam purdy for .
alan had come uptown to meet in strawbeery fields . he'd help .
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